{escape} 5.28.12

Just open your computer, check your email once more, read that blog again, waste your time.

Just create something, find something to make that will replace what's happening.

Jut turn on the TV. Shut off your mind. Sit there. Relax.

Just work out. Exercise so your mind shuts off.

Just escape. Escape the emotions, the pain, the sadness. Escape the present.

But I can't search my life on google and relive the past. No one is going to email me the future. I can't find what I'm missing on tv, or stop the clock, there's no escape. Everything is ending.

{you're graduating. can you believe it?}

he lowers his ear to hear the baby whose growing inside the young mother, his little lips parting to reveal a toothless grin.
“mommy, i can hear her. i think she’s trying to tell me that she loves me!” the little boy says, his face a mixture of excitement and anxiety.
the mother smiles, “we don’t even know if it’s a girl or a boy yet.”
“but, mommy. i KNOW it’s a girl. it is a girl.”
“but, baby, we don’t know that yet.” she says.
“BUT she’s a girl! i know she’s a girl!.” he states. and with that he whispers to the big tummy, “i love you baby sister. and i can’t wait to meet you. and maybe i can show you how to throw a baseball. just like daddy teached me.”
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oh, big brother. i’m going to miss you.
sometimes you get me angry.
but i love you.
and i don’t want you to go.
promise me, you have to promise me, that you’ll come back.
because, i don’t know what i’ll do if you don’t.
i love you, big, brother, bennett.
a wholeeeee lot more than you know.