{why} (for) 5.10.12

Did you plan it? Were your feelings so wrapped up in her's that you literally couldn't live without her? Did you know that day would be your last? How could you bear it? Why did you do it? How long had the thought been charging, gaining strength for your self destruction? Did you ever think of the consequences? Did you of your family, or friends? Or the life you could have had? Did you ever think there could be more, that you could get over it, that it could get better? Or were you that hopeless? 
You were so young.